I hate him. so much that I couldnt explain.
I was depressed for the last few months,
hate myself for being so weak, and so fragile.
He became my Only One, and i wasnt his.
I reported every single details and he never.
I know i was played, by him.
I know he takes me for granted, and i allowed him.
I lost myself clinging to someone doesnt worth my loves. my precious love.
There were times, i thought our relationship dint go on smooth was because of me.
That proves me wrong by the time i found out he was such a jerk.
But why do i love a jerk?
Why do i love someone who hurt me more than a hundred times?
Why do I cry?
No answer.
And i cant leave him. I just cant. I dont know How.
And i have tried.
i have tried so many times.
i hate him so much, hate the way he treats me, hate the way he talks to me like an idiot,
hate the way he dint return his love like how i love him.
My life is revolving around his.
Living in his order of Yes No or Maybe.
i hate myself for not being myself for such a long time.
i knew that, i have lost it.
i have lost myself, my way, my dream.
He is never the guy i ever wanted.
He is a player and a hunter.
All i ever dream of, is to be his last girl.
and the only one.
But i have no confidence.
And 1 day i walk up to the street, heads up without him standing next to me.
There are men staring at me as if i look so pretty.
That reminds me of what he said about me before we got together.
i was confident, pretty and independent.
I need a change.
I need to revive.
I need to get rid of him, before my new year start.
